Ever get that feeling when you are desperately trying to move one way, but you are being pulled the other?
Thats how I feel right now. Those that know me will know that while I'm a complete and utter theology and mythology WHORE, some pantheons and whatnot I look upon more favourably than others.

One such pantheon is the greek pantheon. I've loved the gods and their mythology since forever, but I've tried to look away and go elsewhere because of my path. They just don't fit together.

But I'm so tired of trying to ignore the greek pantheon when there is OBVIOUSLY a real connection there. I feel like I'm trying to ignore them and they keep ushing me back again and again.
So I was thinking today, what is stopping me from moving on? Seriously nothing. Closeness to my ancestors? That can move with me vey easily. There is nothing traditionally specific that I have emotional attachment to.

So, a change of path might be in order, it's been bugging me for months. Hopefully, It'll be a good move.

I'm not certain of anything yet. But this really HAS been eating away at me since august. I tried to re-assure myself it'd pass. But it just hasn't. Some things happened a while back too, which I tried to shut my eyes to. I think it was a mistake to do so.

I've been thinking about this and nothing else all week >.<